A busy week that went too fast for my liking. I can’t believe it’s already November 20.
Links of interest for this week:
This is something I have struggled with pretty much forever. In particular I loved this part:
For starters, I realized I don’t have to jump into the deep end before I can swim. Instead, I can start in the shallow end and work my way to the deeper side at a pace I am comfortable with, knowing I can always return to my comfort zone.
Some of us are natural swimmers, and others are afraid of the water. No one would expect a person who’s afraid of water to move at the same pace as someone who loves to swim. If she just put her feet in, we would applaud her. And yet, in our own lives, we expect ourselves to dive right in. We don’t celebrate achievements we think seem trivial compared to what others are doing.
This kind of black and white thinking kept me in my comfort zone. If I don’t go to every art-related event, what’s the point of going to any? If I don’t meet every person I’m connected with, what’s the point of meeting up with anyone?
But it’s not about doing everything. It’s about finding a balance: doing enough that I feel like I’m stretching, but not so much that I feel drained. And if I do too much, it’s about allowing the pendulum to swing in the opposite direction until it centers itself.
I’ve always felt pretty happy with my work and my internal art life. I’ve never really struggled with creative blocks or doubts that art is what I am meant to be doing with my life. It’s just the part about connecting that to the external world that gets tricky. I’ve always wished that I could just make stuff and someone would come to my house and take stuff away and give me money. But alas, that’s not how it works. I’ve never made much of an effort to get into the whole gallery scene (for a multitude of reasons aside from the whole introvert thing), but I do also need some sort of external validation and recognition and ideally financial remuneration. It’s just tricky to figure out how to get that in a way that I am comfortable with and to figure out how much to push myself, and as the author of the article said, what I am avoiding simply because it scares me or is it because I’m actually not interested? I think the internet is a vastly valuable tool for the introvert artist that I have not really taken enough advantage of. That’s why I’ve been making an effort to post my art journal pages every day and also to try to write here. It’s not much but it’s something.
On a lighter note, I love this article “Color Wheels, Charts, and Tables Through History” It’s interesting to see different ways people have analyzed and arranged color in the past. There’s a link to an e-book called “The Creation of Color in Eighteenth-Century Europe” which I’ve bookmarked for later reading. Of course color wasn’t “created” by Eighteenth-Century Europe any more than America was “discovered” by Columbus, but it looks like an interesting analysis of the idea of color in that time and place.
And just some fun randomness: Smooth Criminal M.Jackson à l’orgue de barbarie (Michael Jackson’s “Smooth Criminal” played on an old-fashioned hand-cranked pipe organ. Reminds me of the amazing Museum Speelklok in Utrecht that I had the pleasure of visiting this past summer.