Art Journal 09-02-14

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09-02-14

I spent most of the holiday weekend holed up in my studio, finishing the six large collages for my show at Crane Arts, which opens on the 11th.   I have been working on these pieces since mid-May, after being asked to do the show. I started out at a relatively leisurely pace, but have spent July and August pretty much working on these things nonstop. I’d do my paid work in the daytime and spend almost every evening working on these collages. It’s been nice to really put some concentrated effort into something, but also a little annoying to know that there’s definitely something I HAVE to work on. It’s made my schedule less flexible than usual, because normally if I feel like doing something other than paid work during the day I could just push it off until the evening, but I couldn’t do that since I knew I had to work on the collages in the evening. But I’m really happy with how they turned out so it was worth it.

I always have such mixed feelings upon the completion of a big project or the achievement of a major goal. I do feel happy, and relieved to have some time back, but also I feel somewhat sad and at a loss. It’s weird to focus on something for years or months and finish it and then it’s gone. I felt that way upon completing my masters’ degree. I thought “oh it will be so nice to have my evenings free again! to read whatever I want to read again!” And it was, but I also felt weird and directionless and adrift. Apparently this is a really common reaction to completing something- I like this article about it a lot. I think for me it’s important to find something new to capture my attention and keep some sort of momentum going. I can be really lazy and unfocused if I allow it, and am perfectly happy to spend all my time lying around reading. It’s difficult to find a balance between being over-focused and over-productive (as I think the past few months have been) and being non-motivated and lazy…

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